10.22.08

Today was the first day I've felt relaxed in awhile, not that I've been particularly busy. Just that I felt ok. I've been in a sort of existential cocoon. Predicting what's to come has so overwhelmed me with an anxiety about who I am and what I am capable of. All the stress amounted to nothing. Didn't accomplish anything. Actually, it was more a path to self-destruction, which I know, through experience, becomes a vicious cycle. What I've realized is that I really don't have a clue.